I should have been born into wealth.

As I am sure many of you feel this way, but I often think to myself about how I was meant to be rich, famous, etc. I am blessed to have been raised in a household that was blessed. We got to go on family vacations, have nice things, live in a large house.... But then came the day when I graduated high school and moved out onto my own.

My parents paid for my schooling, and I am very blessed for that, but growing up in a household where I got nearly everything I want to barely being able to afford food was hard. Although I am now 27 and have a good job, a great husband, etc. And I am blessed to be able to afford things, I still find myself wanting more.

My lunch break at work is usually very routine. I eat in front of my computer and play pretend shop. What's pretend shop you ask? Well, I find clothes that I love, shoes, handbags, etc, select them as if I were to purchase them, but just don't hit "checkout". Sadly, I do this most nights at home as my husband and I sit ont he couch, relax and watch a movie or tv.

I also have a folder in my personal email titled "Things I Want" and I email myself links to things I want and then send the email to the Things I Want folder. Every now and again I go through the folder when I feel like spending money and can actually afford to do so and purchase something in this folder.

I always get really angry when the item I wanted appears to be sold out or no longer in my size. Which is why, sometimes, when I see something I like and there already running low on sizes, I'll buy it. Luckily my husband isn't crazy or mean and doesn't mind the random boxes of things that get delivered to the house each week.

Going back, if I were born into wealth I would do nothing but shop all day! Not just clothes! I'd buy houses, land, boats, cars, etc. I LOVE to buy! Sometimes it doesn't matter what it is. I'm an addict!